Saturday, January 7, 2012

So Long Insecurity

Psalm 116

 1 I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;
   he heard my cry for mercy.
2 Because he turned his ear to me,
   I will call on him as long as I live. 

I try to be transparent.  It is my goal to be authentic and show you myself warts and all.  In the last several months I have been lonely.  I felt disconnected and tired.  Relationships are hard.  Relating is difficult when we are all so very different.

After spending some time one afternoon with Dana M, she explained that her daughter had come home from school expressing the same thoughts and feelings.  She wanted a friend, a bestie, someone to hang out with.  Dana explained that if she asked God He would provide this for her because He cares for her.

Dana and I talked about how no matter our age, we all desire the same.  We want someone to relate to, someone who gets "it".  I know that this is something all of us women long for.  We are at the core, relational souls.  We need communion.

Amy C and I have been searching for a study, a group curriculum that would speak to the women of our church and unify them.

She and I started reading a book called, So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore.  This book is a game changer.  We are all lead by our insecurities.  They plague our relationships and imprison us.  Through reading this book my eyes have been opened to the humanity of the women around me.  They are not competition or a measuring stick and their talents and qualities do not have any impact on who I am and my value in Christ just as my talents and qualities do not detract in anyway their value in Christ.

I cried out months ago for companionship, for communion, for someone who gets it.  God has heard my cry and opened my eyes to the beautiful Godly women around me.  My heart is full of love and affection for the ladies God has put in my life.  I am saddened that I have let my insecurities keep me from diving into the blessings of your friendships.

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