I had my walk through at the Y this morning. I have to admit I cried on the way there. I had a busy morning with a 5 mile run and I misjudged the time it would take to get ready and get to Bonner. So it was a bit of a rushed morning. For some reason I had the time of my appointment in my head (8:30) and didn't take into account actually getting there.
I left the house with a partially wet head. As I was struggling to leave I couldn't find my purse, Anneliese was desperate for me to hold her, and Graham was begging for cereal. It was chaos. As I shut the door to leave Anneliese was crying, "bye, bye!" She didn't want me to leave without her. I could hear her screaming all the way to the driveway.
During the drive I started to shift out of "get there" mode and settle into "what am I doing" mode. It struck me that if all went "well" this would be the first of many trips away from my family and towards the Y. I started to cry and all I could think about was that little bitty redhead crying at the door.
Please understand that I am not the stay at home mom that secretly wishes for a career and really can't wait until I can move beyond this stage. That's just not me. I honestly feel designed to be right where I am. Home...raising my kids, and taking care of my husband. It's my ministry, it's who I am.
The walk through went well, other than horribly uncomfortable heels. The director was kind and informative. He seems to have a lot of the same values and priorities that I do. He is not a "meat head" but is more focused on over all health, supporting families, and connecting with the community.
I found out that I will be paid handsomely when I am actually personally training a client. Otherwise, I will make a decent wage doing fitness evaluations and chatting with members building rapport. I would be responsible to recruit my own clients and therefore in control of my hours and scheduling. The problem is there is no guarantee of hours or clients.
It was a lot to take in.
A gentleman walked in as I was about to leave that had just finished his ACE exam yesterday. The director introduced us and I was able to pick his brain a bit about what to expect. He also let me borrow ACE's flashcards that ACE produces to aid in studying. They are about $40 so I haven't purchased them. That will be a big help and I'm very grateful.
Right now I am going to pray about this position and focus on passing my exam. None of it matters if I'm not certified.