Thursday, April 8, 2010
I am quickly coming to the realization that I'm not going to be able to make it back to "The Number" on the scale I've been working so hard to shrink to.
It's really fine. I had a conversation with myself this morning that went a lot like this:
-Do you feel thin/healthy? Yes, finally I really do.
-Are you eating healthy and exercising? Yes, and I don't feel deprived plus I'm running more with each week.
-How old where you when you maintained "The Number"? Hmm, I was that weight from 25-30. Now I'm 33.
-How many kids have you had? Right....that would be 5.
Ok, I get it. This new number is where a healthy (both physically and more importantly emotionally) Shannon needs to maintain.
Yes, I really talk to myself like that. I like to write and writers are introspective (vs crazy :)). The old weight is a mere 10 lbs from where I am right now and that seems so close but over the last month it's felt so far away. My body seems to have settled right where I am.
I have decided to keep on just as I've been, making good choices and running. If by chance the weight goes down fine, but if it doesn't I am content where I am.
This may seem trivial to some, but as a goal setter I work to achieve those goals. It's important to me that I complete things. At the same time I have had a lot of Weight Watchers members come in with unrealistic goals and end up quitting the program all together when they aren't able to quite get there. This blog is me giving myself permission to be right where I am. No stress, no guilt, just a healthy mom working to glorify God in every area of her life. Including this one.